Welcome back Ham :)

Hello Ham:

I found your words from Harvey very inspiring Ham.. thanks.

I just got back from grocery shopping which is a lesson in itself. I find myself more and more aware each time I go of the abundance of food choices in our lives and how we have to be so responsible when it's all laid out in front of us. Though I am not avoiding bread entirely I am aware of the content and calories in almost all brands now ... lol. I enjoy flat breads more with some 95% fat free philly cheese on them as they give me a crunch and are tasty too. I am eating mostly chicken and tuna and other fish for protein but have steak once a week and only a small portion. But I try to make it tasty. I agree that portions are of the utmost importance and notice if I do happen to overeat I don't feel so well.

I am finding myself visualizing a lot and thinking about what it will feel like to be lighter one day. But I don't think of myself as a super model or anything. Just what will it feel like in a few weeks 5 lbs lighter. Little steps. At my size you can't notice so much my weight loss yet except someone mentioned that my face seemed slimmer... haha. I hope I have lost it in other places as well.... don't want to have a giant body and a teeny head....lol. Anyhow I think that it is absolutely key to keep aware at all times of how you want to "feel" not just how you want to "look". Being overweight gives a perspective on life that not everyone has. It makes me less judemental on peoples looks and I value the people who value the inner me and my personality more because they have looked beyond the superficial. The people who support me are the ones who will love me whether I am120 lbs or 200 lbs. They want me to lose weight so that I can "feel" well because they care about my quality of life not about how I look.

Anyhow.... I made good choices and didn't go overboard with anything, although I did buy two lobster tails. I also bought myself a new TV and a new couch and love seat. I've worked hard this year and I have come along way from where I was 6 years ago. I have carried a lot of weight on my body, in my heart and in my mind while trying to work my way through the changes. But as the time has gone on I have let a lot go, I think my body is following suit with my heart and emotions. Plus I really really needed a new couch and a new TV... lol. (The loveseat is Jenny's).

Off to do dishes and prepare my head for the week ahead. Love you all. And Thanksgiving sounds great at your place Ham. I hope that it might be okay for me to add Jenny's 11th birthday in that with the family if that's ok. She always loves a birthday party at Uncle Ham's and Uncle Sue's place.

Bye for now :)