Still the same... (posted by Birgie)

Hi All,
After taking time to read all of the very deep blogs from all of you, I realize we are all beginning to understand ourselves as well as each other. How good is that?
Neenie I'm truly happy you found a new home, it looks lovely. Glad that you were able to try and understand why you had weight problems and share it with all of us. I'm so sorry things weren't perfect!
Ham it's good that you have found a group to help you in your quest.
I'm trying hard to belong to so many groups that it's sometimes difficult for me. Acceptance has always been my biggest problem, I'm needing to start fresh again. I have alot of knowledge to offer these art groups re: advertising so hopefully I will fit in. At the same time I need to be true to my husband and family.
As we approach these milestones our goals for tomorrow come to the forefront again. Each milestone is different because we are different, we are not the same person we were. So we search for answers to why can't we be the same? Actually I just answered my own question, we need to accept change in a positive light! Wow! That means get healthy and happy again!Last week was a week filled with anticipation. The weekend did bring in money so it was not wasted, however the one thing I know for sure is, is that the people we meet truly are special. We all need each other! Many of the people were former clients who we have helped deal with their own particular losses and changes in their lives. It's so good to see them again and see how they have gotten over their grief. That's my favorite part of the whole craft show thing. Inspiring others to move forward or at least try.
It's sad that we no longer will be part of that group anymore, nearly like a death after 6 years. For the older organizers they still want to have it but no one has the strength to volunteer anymore, so they have to stop it.
We are approaching a whole new time frame in our own relationship on decisions to make on what course our ship will take.
I'm presently working on business plans for Albirg creations. I will then try and find time for a business plan for Birgie Enterprises, a company I registered a year and a half ago. It takes alot of thought in planning to make sure they are realistic goals that we are striving for. For both companies the initial goals are so close to becoming a reality, but it will take more manpower and I know where to find it to. Al and I have accomplished so much "just the 2 of us" that this will be a really hard step to take.
These are the types of things that in the past would lead me to eat the wrong foods to feel better to avoid dealing with it, not today anyways.
I went out and purchased lots of flowers to plant, looking forward to taking on that physical job tomorrow.
Need to clean our house for upcoming company from my friend Marguerite from Penetanguishine this weekend. As a single mother all her life she raised a daughter Dawn Ellen who is now a personal trainer in Vancouver. She can be proud! As 2 single moms we shared much time together at the condo and helped each other alot. So grateful to have had her in my life, many years ago, learned so much from her.
Mom , Al and I have been invited for lunch to visit old Ancaster neighbours who's daughter now lives in the Dunnville area. Reunion so to speak. After so many years it's nice to touch base with folks. Barb was kind enough to ask what type of food is appropriate as she knows how hard it is to lose weight. She has done it and has kept it down for many years. Good for her, her sister Carol is built more like me now. Growing up Carol was the skinny one and Barb chubby like me. Go figure.
Anyways it's looking like a busy week, hopefully I will stay focused on the task at hand, eating the proper food and less. As Angie said it baby steps, I agree.
Last week was a rollercoaster weightwise, I remained the same in the final analysis today, am a bit disappointed, however I know I had good days during the week where I did drop. I have been journalling daily. I did try.
I also believe that our family does retain water and that humidity doesn't help me at all.
On to our 3rd week of getting healthy! Good luck!
Love Birgie

I leave you with this thought by Edgar L. Byrd " Each day is a new day; Each sunrise holds a new plan. Fear not to go forth... Discover- Consume- Understand."