Making choices (posted by Janine)

Since slipping on the raw foods I've found it pretty difficult to stay focussed. My work keeps having all of these fancy lunches and parties where the food is free and whatnot. Yesterday at lunch I ate a veggie wrap and salad at a work thing, cause the thought of eating just another plate of mixed greens and house dressing bored the hell out of me. I also ended up eating some of my friend Mike's fries which tasted like heaven. And after the big lunch meal, ofcourse I needed to top it off with some chocolate. So I opted for the small Lindt 70% dark. It has 190 calories and most of the ingredients are pretty straight up with the most prominent ingredient actually being cocoa and not filler or sugar or butter.

Did I mention that I actually had an icecream cone a couple of days ago? Cookies and cream. And you know what it tasted like? Well... it tasted probably better than making out with Jesus or Brad Pitt or both at the same time. It literally made me completely catatonic. I just sat there focussed on every taste sensation and in love with my icecream. How am I to overcome, when I am completely overcome?

Last night I was invited by a friend to go and see a play in the Distillery district. We went some place fancy before-hand for some drinks. I ordered a nice glass of red wine and he ordered a pint. And for the food... Well, the waiter mentioned the soup of the day being a mushroom soup with cumin and truffle oil. There was no way I could pass this up, so I ordered the soup. And I had two pieces of bread with it. And you know what it tasted like? Like the little baby Jesus dancing on my tastebuds and blessing each one with happiness.

The play was spectacular. A one man show based on a Dylan thomas peom called Under Milk Wood, which was brilliant. Post play my friend and I went back to the neighbourhood and had a pint before he walked me home. I woke up this moring with that familiar "I ate cooked food yesterday" yuckiness in my guts. It gives me trouble sleeping.

SMALL VICTORIES: Though my dietary choices were less than controlled, I walked to the theatre which was about 30 minutes. I also spent 45 minutes at the gym, running, stair climbing, and doing some weights. I wrote down the schedule for all of the free classes. I'd like to do tae boxing, pilates and ball work. Tomorrow on my lunch break I even have the chance to try "strippersize" which feels like a weird activity to do in the middle of the work day. But... Wednesday is also called "hump day" so maybe it's fitting. Tonight I'm planning on going to "socasize" which I imagine is going to be some eratic aerobic workout to Caribbean Soca Music. Fun!

Team A... Please kick my ass. I want a donut. I've also been toying with the idea of some kind of juice cleanse, which probably would be better for me than a donut.

neenie