Lorna #4, transformation at its toughest level for me

Hi Everyone,
It has been great to read everyone's comments and to be part of this quite life-changing (extended) family
challenge.
Yesterday afternoon, I found out from my Jenn, who had been trying to find the right time to tell me, that Walter now has a new girlfriend. Jenn says that she looks a lot like me, is vegan and does not drink or smoke, and he has become healthier and is in a happier space than she has seen him in a long time.
I am truly glad for him - he had been unhappy and on a self-destructive path for years.
My reaction has been intense, emotionally. Very, very weepy, even as I type this.
I also want to make this commitment to you, that this information will not be a trigger to send me into an eating binge in the search for comfort and to dull the pain. I absolutely refuse to get into that self-destructive spiral of my own again.
So, I will raise a glass of fresh pressed juice, eat some walnuts, go for a swim, cry as long as I have to, and stay true to the focus and goal, which will better support me than anything else.
Love, Lorna