Hey Everyone

Wow... you guys are doing great! Lorna.. huggss... no need for me to go on...the others have said it all. Janine... awesome job, my thoughts would be for you to look at each of your options and envision them as if you were really doing them in quiet mediation ... the one that makes you feel the best would be the way to go. When you feel it you can be it right :) !!!! That's the power that takes us where we will be the happiest.

I have been in a really negative frame of mind the last few days and thus kept it to myself. I'm trying to pull myself out of it and your comments do help. Birgie thanks for reminding me about labels. I did a big shop today and was reading each label when facing some questionable food choices. Reading those labels made me put those items back and opt for healthier ones. I can't believe how easily the calories can add up when you turn a blind eye to those labels!!! Thanks again Birg.

I bought a new scale cause the old one was crap. Nothing like that reality check let me tell you! I am way way way higher than I thought I was and it really sent me for a tail spin. The road is really long you guys and I'm really afraid of not making it. There is no one to blame but myself. There is nothing I hate more than self pity though, and when I feel that way it gets me even angrier at myself for feeling that way. It is such a catch 22... the more you beat yourself up the more it hurts and the harder you beat yourself to try and stop it the frickin beating. At least I recognize this strange behaviour and wonder how it ever came to be this way. I am like my own child and parent in the same body duking it out to get some control and balance happening. It's so easy to tell other people how I see things and to give encouragement or thoughts. Why can't I do that for myself I wonder? Anyhow I suppose today I did some of the right things and am trying to make a conscious effort to be in this journey.

I saw a great movie called the Pursuit of Happyness (yes that is spelled incorrectly). It is a true story about a single Dad's struggle against all the awful obstacles in his life to keep trying to find Happiness and never giving up. It was actually painful to watch because his life just was one mess after another, getting worse and worse. I kept thinking how the heck did this guy keep going? Thankfully there was a moral to the story and all the anguish and hardship he went through was leading up to a very great moment in his life. Without all of his suffering he may not have truly appreciated the place he finally got to. So it is with us all eh? You can't appreciate the sunshine if you haven't felt the rain.

Love
Angie